This is, part of being a man... making very hard choices. I too feel the pain of not seeing Saella, but I know in my heart and in her heart that she knows that we love her. I just will have to wait until she can understand how her mother is. I can't understand for the life of me wife her mother has a grudge against me. I let her azz come and stay with us, when her dad put her azz out for being pregnat by a black guy. Trust, I did not want her to stay, but for my brother, my future niece and Sapril, I made a huge sacrfice, that never was for me. She messed up my stuff, but still I let her stay in a place that I paid rent. I am not saying that she is a completely bad person, and because she is Saella's mother, she will always have a place with our family. I just refuse to play these childish azz games that hurt me, my family, and most of all Saella. I don't get to see her as much as I would like, but I will not let Sapril hold her over my head like she is pawn, that is constantly out of my reach. She thinks she is hurting us, and to a degree it does, but the bigger injustice is to Saella. I do love her, and I know she knows....no matter what Sapril does, in the end, it will be her that suffers from ther cruelty she causes other!!!!! Lil, brother be strong and trust in the LORD with all your heart, and he will uplift you to a glorious victory!!! It may take some time, but you always do what is right, and don't be fooled by falsehoods that will try to entice you.