4yrs down the drain.

[acidbug]

Thanks for all the kind words...It's really helping me..through this difficult time...

I wish i can go on long drives...but unfortunately..with my work and school schedule..i have no free time anymore..I mean i just got in 10min ago from work..i usualy work nites..and i alwayz work late to make some extra $$$...today was horrible..i worked over 8hrs..and didn't even make $75 in tips...

With that said...i am going to get (stoned)

 

[NRRfrogmanP5]

**** it. go smoke up.

lol(cool)

 

[Matthew]

damn that chick looks wierd, good for you, go find some good pussy. (cool)

 

[Mazdaspeedgirl]

Clearly she was hiding behind a faade for quite some time. That's the same as lying, and lying is dishonest. So you're better off without her. You're young yet, sweetie. Keep ya chin up.

 

[low_psi]

Take what you've learned from the past 4yrs and move on in a new direction. Don't think of this as just an end, but also a beginning. Don't let it get you too down. Smoke

 

[laracroft]

Yeah, smoking will solve ALL your problems.(braindead While you're at it, jump off a 1,000 ft cliff. Neither's a bright idea.

But I will tell you that you didn't deserve a slap in public.

Other than that, if you've been with her for 4 years and she got on you about having issues either being a pot head or dope dealer, then she's the one that outgrew you. It's not the other way around. Just find yourself someone who'll be more than happy to light up with you and watch you get wasted over the next 4 years. You know, if you loved her and it bothered her about what you were doing with yourself, you would've stopped. Same thing for her, if she did things you knew you didn't like, you would have told her to stop. If she didn't, then you could choose to leave and know that she didn't love you either. It's called love and making sacrifices. After 4 years, if this has been a reoccurring issue, than it was bound not to last.

it's times like those that u wish you were a woman abuser...

This has gotta be the dumbest statement I've heard all week. Yeah, I wish I were a pedophile or rapest too!!!! How cool would THAT be?

 

[girth]

Listen to Lara.

 

[acidbug]

***********************Update**********

It's been some time since i last posted...lately it's like i have been missing her more and more. I try to put her out of my head w/ trying to pick up more shifts...but my new job only scheduled me for 2 shifts next week....That means less than $200 i am making....how depressing...

She checked the forums..and found this post...she was unhappy to say the least...she had the nerve to say.."Why didn't you defend me?"...I was dumbfounded to say the least...

after that..... she played the EMON Song: **** You i don't want you back...i was very mad...

I recently had a gentleman leave a message on my house line..asking for my ex...i called her up..and asked her what the deal...and why are guyz calling my place for you...she said..it had to do w/ some lawyers..and loan..and she hung up on me...like in a rush...

The girls i have been talking to just don't appeal to me...and the few #'s i have gotten...has got me VM for over 1 week. I need to do something...i think i may pick up a 2nd job..for a month or so..to make ends meet..as a mechanics helper...

 

[Replica]

Just because you love someone doesn't mean you're supposed to be together. Even after a seemingly tramatic breakup, try to put things in perspective, most women aren't that great. It sounds like the relationship was only meant to last 6 months...

 

[Replica]

***********************Update**********

It's been some time since i last posted...lately it's like i have been missing her more and more. I try to put her out of my head w/ trying to pick up more shifts...but my new job only scheduled me for 2 shifts next week....That means less than $200 i am making....how depressing...

She checked the forums..and found this post...she was unhappy to say the least...she had the nerve to say.."Why didn't you defend me?"...I was dumbfounded to say the least...

after that..... she played the EMON Song: **** You i don't want you back...i was very mad...

I recently had a gentleman leave a message on my house line..asking for my ex...i called her up..and asked her what the deal...and why are guyz calling my place for you...she said..it had to do w/ some lawyers..and loan..and she hung up on me...like in a rush...

The girls i have been talking to just don't appeal to me...and the few #'s i have gotten...has got me VM for over 1 week. I need to do something...i think i may pick up a 2nd job..for a month or so..to make ends meet..as a mechanics helper...

Usually a breakup just makes me closer to my friends. Hell, I've spent so much time working on my friend's civic lately just to keep my head straight. I am in a relationship at the moment and things are good, but it still helps to keep me from over analyzing and hurting myself over nothing. Don't sweat it, they always seem better in memory.

 

[MisterT]

She looks a bit crazy.

My thoughts exactly. If she comes over to your place even just to talk, put away the knives!!!! (dark)

 

[Brian MP5T]

Ha She Found the thread!

 

[computerGeek]

SERIOUSLY Take a year to yourself ATLEAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Find you for you. I did this when i broke up with my college Girl friend of almost five years. yes i spent college with one woman. I do not regret it at all.

Trust me, finding yourself will be the best thing you could do for yourself and your future woman. Then you will Know what you want and you will make sure you find the right girl for you.

DO not pretent to be anything other than yourself from the begining. This is the no. 1 thing that screws relationships. And the only way to do this is to know and be comfortable with You. Trust me I am an expert on this i am on my second 4 year relationship and believe it or not i wear the pants. If you need me to go into more detail or need more advice IM me or hit me up here.

Oh, Also... seriously stop with the drugs go to school and use knowledge as your drug. You will be one the most powerful people in the world and your brain won't play tricks on you. I speak from experience. not as a goody too-shoes!!!!

cheer up butter cup. it only gets better with time!

 

[BlkWidow]

my first love (i thought) really broke my heart i stayed at home for a full year. then i found my wife 01/08/05 will make 11yrs being married and 9 & 3yr boys it took a couple years of dating but there was some else for me and you will find someone else it wont happen over night just take the time you need for yourself to get over it it hurts for some time the things that hurt will make you stronger i am not saying smoking is right my wife knew from the start to i smoked she was kool with it

 

[Wiggles6983]

i definitly feel ya. just broke off mine of 3 years night before last. it's rough. I try to keep my mind off it by diving into work. It's worse though cuz yesterday she decided she still wants to be friends so now she's callin me. I made a broken heart cd and its helping me through it.

heres the track list

1) Scars-PoppaRoach
2) HoldOn-GoodCharlotte
3) Long December- Counting Crows
4) my bloody valentine- good charlotte
5)I was wrong- social distortion
6)saw red - sublime
7)my december- Linkin Parkl
8)shine- collective soul
9)Be like that- 3 doors down
10)My immortal- Evenessence
11)Up&Gone- hoobastank
12)My Friends Over You- New Found Glory
13)Useless - Oingo Boingo
14)Outside- Staind
15) story of my life- Social distortion



yeah i'm a dork but hey its helping me so i figured i'd pass it on.

I'd like to make a suggestion to the list
Friend is a Four Letter Word - Cake

plz forgive if it was already posted, didn't want to read all the pages on dial up.

 

[FunkyBuddha]

Looks like a hooker

 

[laracroft]

Dont lose hope. There will be that one person that's out there who wants to be with you. You just haven't found her yet. Think of it as a save for something better in the end. Relationships are like vehicles... you're leasing with the option to buy.