What is going on?

[GHOSTWHISPER]

I am not neccessarily depressed, it is just overwhelming at times. Like I said I am overall very happy for most of it, but it just sucks at times.

 

[gino]

You're part of the largest club on the globe.

 

[mazdaspeedpower]

I feel the same way all the time man. Like, right now I am supposed to be deciding where to go with my life...but really, what I want to do is say **** it all, and go live in the bush. All alone, no people, no news, no hassles. Just me, and whatever I can hunt. ****, I'd love to have a ferrari, or a big house, or a wife and kids(later on of course), or my own business, but I really don't even see the point to it. I mean, what is the point to all of that? A ******* status symbol. but for me, all I really want is a Ferrair 360 Moden in Yellow...thats all I want. I don't care so much about a big house, or any other s*** like that, I just want the car, since I feel so much better when I drive. Driving releases me, and everything feels right in the world when I am driving. Just chilling in the car, alone, with some nice music, just cruising. But like you said, I get home, and see the media, everywhere, with their ******* propaghanda and all their 'who wants to be a star' bulls*** and all the icons and s***. I mean, **** it all, we're all just people. So why is it some people get so much, and others so little. I mean, I work hard, everyday of my ******* life...and for what? I feel like my life is failing at everything. I am not a very sucessful person to myself, but then I see everything else, and that just makes it worse. I want to be sucessful, and I know it takes work, only problem is, all my doors feel like they are closing around me. Feels like I'm being left behind. I want to finish school, become a teacher, and get a part time job as a real estate salesman. While working, put some money on a nice house, live in it, while I fix it up and sell it for profit. Do that a few times and then invest in a business. The only problem is, I just don't think I'll succeed. Why? because I just feel like doing that is gonna end me up worse off than I am right now.I want to take the risk, because I know to win, you gotta play, to play you gotta be able to pay. I want to be happy, and I want to be sucessful. But I also don't wanna have to give up my life, with friends, family, parties, driving going to shows and concerts and s***. But apparently to be sucessful I'm going to have to. Right now for me it's all a bunch of confusing s*** on where I want to go with my life, and what I want to give up for that life.
I also feel what your saying about people and technology via INTER-*******-NET. No one ever wants to talk on the phone to say hey, or plan something, all ******* online. Hey, you wanna chill?, no I can't, I'm talking with my online friends I'm never gonna meet or see or be able to interact with. I mean, yeah, ok, cool. Its nice to be able to access all this s***, but people really go overboard, and get addicted to this s***, and just can't seem to give it up. I mean, I'm a mountainbiker, and I love to ride. But all my friends just wanna chill inside, or go to the movies, or watch TV or go online. Even the people I used to ride with are becoming fat slobs. So I find myself, alone out on the trails...I used to see all sorts of people out and about...now it's rare. Unless someone is outside to tan, they aren't there. Except for a rare few, who aren't letting themselves be taken over by the web. Also, people seem to use the web to steal alot of s***. I mean, given, it's cool to be able to download an entire album from an artist, and listen to it. But if you like it you should atleast pay for it, even if you only buy the online MP3 version, you gotta pay man. I mean, hell yes I download alot of s***. But about 75% of it, the stuff I even remotely like I'll go out and buy, it's only respect. It's like a car. You buy it, or lease it to pay for its use. The creator/seller get money for their service, business goes one. Now, say you lease a car, but pay nothing....who pays for what you just did. But then you gotta think again, these people you are paying for their 'talent', are the same ******* people who are greedy, selfish bastards for the most part. Don't get me wrong, some are extremely good people, better than I, and use their status and wealth to get good things done...then theres the Jessica Simpsons.
As you can tell by my ******* essay here, I'm confused, lost, overwhelmed and pissed off all at once. I dunno what the hell is going on with my life anymore, and I don't know where to go with it all.
Thats just my little blurb.

 

[GHOSTWHISPER]

It sucks, but the house and nice things to me arnt status. I really want them. I want my big house, so i can have everything i once wanted, I Want lots of property, so i can go do cool s*** wherever i want. I want my enzo to just fly, and somedays all just say to myself , lets drive to montana, and just jet off. To me money makes things easier, not happier, just easier to do things that you like. It is a sad fact but in these times it is true. But if you work hard anything can be achieved. I know it is going to sound like a major buzzkill, but think about all the money all of us waste on our cars, we loved the speed, but we have dumped so much into our rides that other parts of our lives suffer. I am blessed to have the cash to spend on mine, but i think sometimes how much more I would have if i didnt. Then i think even harder, and i care more on how the car is.

 

[Roywhitep5]

mtv is evil

 

[peepsalot]

I ran into a friend of mine
Said he was gonna take some words and make them rhyme
I said "You can fool some of them some of the time,
But you can only fool half them all of the time"
He said "Yes I do believe this is true,
Would you like to come and sniff some glue?
And we'll fly to where the skies are blue
And look for things both bright and new"

And on a pretty Sunday morning
A bunch of pretty Baptist girls
Linked their pretty hands and they sang
Life is s***, life is s***
The world is s***, the world is s***
This is life as I know it
This is life as I know it

And in the sky I saw Richard Nixon
Smoking a lacey with Mr. Dickson
He said "Son there's something I must say,
I do believe I've found a better way"
And a vision came
And I knew it was Bob Crane
And Bob sang:

Life is s***, life is s***
The world is s***, the world is s***
This is life as I know it
This is life as I know it

And when my friend and I were done
We went to rest upon the sun
Cause life takes from us the things we love
And it robs us of the special ones
And it puts them high where we can't climb
And we only miss them all the time

And we sing:
Life is s***, life is s***
The world is s***, the world is s***
This is life as I know it
This is life as I know it
This is life as I know it
This is life as I know it
This is life as I know it


courtesy of the Dead Milkmen.

 

[AndrewF150]

You sound like the same type of guy as me. Someone who seems to really want the more simple things in life. I personally believe in the saying that money is the root of all evil.

My suggestion? Well if you can afford it, buy yourself a nice litle house in the hills of a nice rual community. Get away from everything, just enjoy life!

One of the best feelings in the world is waking up in the morning, looking out into the hills and fields, seeing all the trees and knowing that you don't have to deal with the crap of the "business mans" life. Not only that, but people in a smaller community are more likely to talk face to face with you than over im, or e-mail.

I gew up in a very small community, beutiful part of Oregon. When I was about 19, I thought I wanted out. So I moved to the big city, I moved to a faster pace life. Could I deal with that? Yes. But I ended up back where I grew up.

You just need to learn to let go, and just really enjoy life, and get away from it all. Don't worry about the castle's, or the sports cars. Just build yourself a nice house on a nice plot of land, and sit back and enjoy.

 

[LRHK]

I sometimes feel the same way.... The best way for me is to go for a mountain bike ride, hit the slopes, or a round of golf and enjoy the fresh air. I realize there are a lot better things in life then money (sure I have a good job and am well educated)(and I like money just like everyone else..) and things can always be a lot worse. Just take time to relax and enjoy the fresh air.

 

[jflo]

one thing that gets me is going to the beach and just enjoying a day out in the sun or in the water. forget everything else. just watch the sun beat down on you and slowly hide behind the ocean. try bodyboarding for 4 hours, eat lunch, and go back until it gets dark and keep on going. ride as many waves as you can. it's challenging to stay on sometimes, but you totally forget everything and you get a nice little rush after riding to shore.

at least, that's me

 

[RX]

Don't cry. Dry your eye.

 

[batmang]

i know exactly how you feel ghost, and this applies to anyone in any life situation, not just, yours in particular.

im 22, going on 23 in july, and ive already accomplished what ive wanted to do since i was 13 years old.

i began working on pc's when i was 13, building many at 14 years old, and thats all ive pretty much done, computers. i graduated from high school being one of those guys who slept in literally every class, i was uplate being a nerd, or playing games. but, it only made me computer knowledge grow if anything. i missed out on a lot, but i gained the best thing in the world my senior year, my fiance missy. ive been with her almost 5 years, and i beleive she is my soulmate.

i graduated high school, moved out, worked and went to itt tech for 2 years straight, not 2 weeks after graduating. i had no vacation, i went to school 3 days a week, worked 30 hours a week, and quit the job after 2 years. i got a job at university medical center in tucson as a computer technician and this is what ive been wanting to do since i was a little kid, work as a computer technician.

i love my job, and im glad how things turned out, but im.... not satisfied. i feel i cut myself short thinking i could be a pc tech for 20 years and then retire. i feel as if i made my experience limited for no reason, and everyday i feel unsatisfied.

its not that i hate life, i just think life takes a big toll on everyone, wether you like it or not, life's a b****.

no matter how rich you are, no matter how poor you are, something will always bring you down, but that only makes you analyze details, which inturn make you more intelligent and stronger in general.

we all have wants, and we all have needs. when we start focusing on all the wants instead of needs, we begin to forget what we are here for.

my goal is to start focusing on my needs and see how that pans out, as all ive done for the passed 3 years is satisfy my WANTS.... from realizing that.... i now know why ive become spontatneously unhappy.

satisfy your needs in life, you'll end up on top of the world before you know it.

 

[CommieSpeed]

I have seen drugs **** to many people over, I am scared to even take oxycotin, i refused to take it when i broke my neck and s***

Oxy's are the worst. I don't blame you for never wanting to take them. My own brother's life has been seriously ****** by opiates...they are extremely evil and make people retarded.