rt66protege
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DISCLAIMER:> this is a long rant and anyone who actually reads it all is really up too late with nothing better to do. I realize that.
So, this evening, I call up my friend who had the date with another chick the other night, right? I had thought things were starting to look up and get a little serious maybe in my favor. We've been good friends for a long time, and finally things started happening, after all.
He sounded really upset earlier after work and I was going to come over and hang out with him this evening at his place. He tells me he just wants to spend some time alone. A totally reasonable request, so I stay at home and go to the gym near my side of town. I call again earlier this evening. No answer. Call the cell phone, no answer. Call again once on each line, no answer. Leave messages. Go to bed.
He calls me then a few minutes ago, and it's now 2am my time and I have to be at work tomorrow at 9:30a, and tells me he was with said other girl (who is an ex-girlfriend, btw) after watching a little tv and was gettin it on at her house!
Ok, ok. In all fairness to him, he never promised me anything or told me we were going to be an item and only implied it. And yes, he has been straightforward with me about what end is up lately. So I kind of laugh on the phone and mention something about me being worried he was really upset about something and he went out to sow his wild oats, then say well have a good night. Then I lie awake in bed and start to think about it for a few short minutes and realize I'm a little bugged for no reason apparently. It's not like he DID make any promises or commitments to date/ sleep with just me. And if he told his ex that he was with me sometimes, she would go absolutely insane on him so he doesn't tell her upfront about what's going on and what he's doing. I guess I'm trying to find a way to not feel upset about the whole thing and continue on as friends. We have a long history together in that department at least.
I guess I was just a second-best recovery girl for him in the long run. Stupid me for being there for that part. And he hasn't really even hung out with his ex in a year that much, so I thought it was really over between them. But I know he loved her a lot before things went sour. After he broke things off between them cuz she was being a really selfish, controlling brat, she begged him for the last year to come back. He said he never wanted to. In the long run, I'm pretty sure he's confused and doesn't want to commit to anyone right now, but I've been pretty wrong about a lot of stuff lately. God, am I the biggest loser in the world or not? I really know how to pick em! *sigh* Great, I have to go to work tomorrow/ later today, and I'm not even close to ready for sleep.
~A little depressed apparently for no reason~
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So, this evening, I call up my friend who had the date with another chick the other night, right? I had thought things were starting to look up and get a little serious maybe in my favor. We've been good friends for a long time, and finally things started happening, after all.
He sounded really upset earlier after work and I was going to come over and hang out with him this evening at his place. He tells me he just wants to spend some time alone. A totally reasonable request, so I stay at home and go to the gym near my side of town. I call again earlier this evening. No answer. Call the cell phone, no answer. Call again once on each line, no answer. Leave messages. Go to bed.
He calls me then a few minutes ago, and it's now 2am my time and I have to be at work tomorrow at 9:30a, and tells me he was with said other girl (who is an ex-girlfriend, btw) after watching a little tv and was gettin it on at her house!
Ok, ok. In all fairness to him, he never promised me anything or told me we were going to be an item and only implied it. And yes, he has been straightforward with me about what end is up lately. So I kind of laugh on the phone and mention something about me being worried he was really upset about something and he went out to sow his wild oats, then say well have a good night. Then I lie awake in bed and start to think about it for a few short minutes and realize I'm a little bugged for no reason apparently. It's not like he DID make any promises or commitments to date/ sleep with just me. And if he told his ex that he was with me sometimes, she would go absolutely insane on him so he doesn't tell her upfront about what's going on and what he's doing. I guess I'm trying to find a way to not feel upset about the whole thing and continue on as friends. We have a long history together in that department at least.
I guess I was just a second-best recovery girl for him in the long run. Stupid me for being there for that part. And he hasn't really even hung out with his ex in a year that much, so I thought it was really over between them. But I know he loved her a lot before things went sour. After he broke things off between them cuz she was being a really selfish, controlling brat, she begged him for the last year to come back. He said he never wanted to. In the long run, I'm pretty sure he's confused and doesn't want to commit to anyone right now, but I've been pretty wrong about a lot of stuff lately. God, am I the biggest loser in the world or not? I really know how to pick em! *sigh* Great, I have to go to work tomorrow/ later today, and I'm not even close to ready for sleep.
~A little depressed apparently for no reason~
(strike)
I can understand why you are upset. You like the guy, thats not a bad thing. I would have been upset too. Things will look up.
