you are very lucky to have survived that, count your blessings and be thankful you still have your life. there are some who are not so fortunate and people need to realize you may be a great driver but you control nothing.. the unexpected can happen in a split second. you can trust yourself and your driving ability, its the things unseen you can not trust. glad to see your ok and your spirits are up, the car can be replaced even though the time and money you have already spent are lost. its not every day you get a second chance, take advantage of this oppertunity that you have been granted and make the best of what you got. judging from the distruction of the car, not many would survive that, he may have plans for you. good luck to you and your family.